Daily Life Lessons from Rabbi Heschel
Year 2 Day 244
“We must learn how to endow “the good drive” with more power, how to lend beauty to sacred deeds. The power of evil can be consumed in the flames of joy.” (God in Search of Man pg. 385)
Two more paths to joy are found in the teachings of the first teaching of Chapter 4 of Pirke Avot, “Who is mighty, one who subdues their evil inclination” and “who is rich, one who is happy with what they have”. We all have within us the strength to “subdue their evil inclination”. “Subdue” comes from the Latin meaning “to draw from below” and one of the dictionary definitions is: “bring under control”. Contrary to popular belief, Ben Zoma, a 1st and 2nd century sage, teaches us that might does not come from the exercise of power over another individual, it doesn’t come from standing on the mountain top and beating our chests. Rather might comes from our ability to “bring under control” and “draw from below” the power of the evil inclination to “endow the “good drive” with more power.”
Living into Rabbi Heschel’s wisdom above, we acknowledge the pull of the evil inclination, we engage in a practice of prayer, meditation, study to recognize the deception of society in ‘rewarding’ power for its own sake, for ‘winning’ through hatred, authoritarianism, fundamentalism, and to examine our own self-deceptions that our egos and minds bombard us with. We then are able to use the power of our both inclinations to subdue/“bring under control” our negative inclination and use it for good. We are not being told to kill it, we are not being told to live in some fantasy nirvana, we are not being taught to deny our urges, we are being given a path to living in joy knowing we are bringing our disparate parts of our inner life closer togethers. When we are able to be mighty, when we use our inner strength to engage our negative/earthly inclination to do the next right thing, to serve one another, to speak truth to power, we are living into joy. It is not impossible, it is not too tall of an order, it is a discipline we engage in through a slow and steady process. We have the sight, the insight, we have to need to engage with this part of our being a little more each day and we will find the joy Rabbi Heschel is speaking of.
Being “happy with what we have” is not about the material wealth or lack thereof in our lives, it is not about settling for less than we are, it is not about not growing and learning; it is teaching us, I believe, to actually and truthfully see who we are, what our talents are, what our gifts are, how we can serve self, God and the world around us. It is a dive into our inner life, a coming together of our two inclinations to serve our spirits, our souls calling. It is a path to enjoying who we are, no longer apologizing for being alive, not being imprisoned by the mendacity of society, no longer subjecting ourselves to the abuse because we are ‘different’. Rather we wear our ‘differences’, our uniqueness openly and proudly. The Talmud teaches that we all have infinite dignity and worth, no one is more or less dignified nor worthy than anyone else, and each of us is a unique individual-similar and unlike anyone else. Reb Zuysa taught: “On judgement day if they ask me “why were you not more like Moses” I will be unafraid. If they ask me, “why were you not more like Zuysa, I will have no answer.” It is our duty to be more of who we are created to be, it is a path to true joy while not always being happy. It is a hard life that is in opposition to societal norms, mores. Just as Rabbi Heschel’s teaching above goes against “conventional wisdom”, so too do we have to let go of our inclination to follow the crowd, go along to get along; we have to stand for who we truly are, we have to find and live into our authenticity, our true selves. This leads us to joy, to “bringing under control’ our negative urges and is a daily discipline.
In recovery, we are taught that our recovery from our addictive ways is based on our daily spiritual condition. We need to continue to grow our surrender to truth, our letting go of the lies of our egos, rational mind, no longer seeing ourselves as ‘better than/less than’ ‘net worth=self worth’, etc. We get to nurture our “good drive” and live into the joy of using our “evil inclination” to endow our goodness with even more power, more strength, more wisdom, more acceptance, more truth, more love. This is “God-consciousness”, a “spiritual awakening/experience” that those of us in recovery get to and need to experience each day.
I live into these teachings, I do ‘bring under control’ my evil inclination for the most part, I transform it to serve the “good drive” a little more each day-not perfectly, I still allow it to control me at times. And, I am happy with who I am, I accept all of me and I see the truth of who I am and each day live a little more authentically than the day before. It isn’t pretty most of the time and it is me. God Bless and stay safe, Rabbi Mark